I have woken up in a life that is not mine. A time and a space that is unreal or is it? I want out of this world, this pain, this time. I don't want to replace it with what was, but the pain is too great to choose to live this. With no ability to do what i will i am once again trapped in a world i hate, an existance that is not my choice. Rage screams through my mind like a ghost of a monster i can not catch, but i can not send away. Death. Dancing with her, courting her, praying for her and yet just as i think i have her she slips away and i am left. Trapped in this tormenting world that i can not escape. Alone. Lost. Afraid.
Don't hurt me.
Death. Where are you friend?
Come for me. See me. Take me with you.
Screaming tears of lost and hopeless futility.