Friday, February 27, 2009

Monday, February 23, 2009

shame
shame - by llziggy2 on Polyvore.com
crying machine
crying machine - by llziggy2 on Polyvore.com
what was that i called my world.
what is this you call your life?
different planets, different truths,
different language, different laws.
i walked the walk.
i talked the talk.
i understood the plan
the goal.
i did my job
the best i could
and accepted my punishment
brave
when i messed up.
hate
i could
trust
no one, no way.
everyone is suspect
everyone but family
my enemy.
you've no idea of what i've done.
of what i know.
so beyond you near sighted
humans
is where i have lived,
what i have known.
caught in another world.
now you see me,
now you don't.
SCREAMING,
leave me alone
crying!
i am lost.
somewhere between then
and this place i wonder if it's now.
i am lost.
now you see me,
now you don't.
now you see me, now you don't
now you see me, now you don't - by llziggy2 on Polyvore.com

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Monday, February 16, 2009

tears that won't stop
tears that won't stop - by llziggy2 on Polyvore.com

today

I have woken up in a life that is not mine. A time and a space that is unreal or is it? I want out of this world, this pain, this time. I don't want to replace it with what was, but the pain is too great to choose to live this. With no ability to do what i will i am once again trapped in a world i hate, an existance that is not my choice. Rage screams through my mind like a ghost of a monster i can not catch, but i can not send away. Death. Dancing with her, courting her, praying for her and yet just as i think i have her she slips away and i am left. Trapped in this tormenting world that i can not escape. Alone. Lost. Afraid.
Help me.
Don't hurt me.
Death. Where are you friend?
Come for me. See me. Take me with you.
Tapped.
Screaming tears of lost and hopeless futility.
Nothingness.
Just nothingness.
trapped
trapped - by llziggy2 on Polyvore.com

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Monday, February 2, 2009

Sunday, February 1, 2009